Authors note: This chapter is a little longer than normal. Sorry if it seems crappy, I’m fighting this terrible sickness. 😦
Fraser’s Point of View
“Should you tell him, or should I?” Lia giggled. Their grins were wide, and they kept going back and forth with the same question. Oh for Pete’s sake! I’m not as young as I use to be, I can’t take all this hyper girly stuff.
“You should definitely do it! Your older.” Kaylee suggested, still giggling.
“By five seconds!”
Oh dear god…
I threw my hand up, and stopped them there. This was going to go on forever if I didn’t kill it now. “Alright, alright, alright!” Shouting to the both of them to knock it off. “You.” I pointed to Kaylee “Tell me now.”
“Okay, okay!!” she squealed in this squeaky voice “Your not going to believe what me and Lia found!!”
Oh boy, why don’t I like the sound of this… “What did you guys find?”
“AN APARTMENT!! Can you believe it daddy!?” Lia shrieked!
A-apartment? What?! NO! They can’t be leaving me already? We just got here- and- and… oh god… now I really feel OLD!
“Your joking. Please tell me your joking…” I sounded terrible, but they were my babies! I didn’t want to lose two of them at the same time. I don’t care that they’re twins either, that’s not an excuse in my book.
“Oh dad.” Kaylee sighed “You’re not upset about this are you? We’re just leaving this house, not the country! We’ll see each other all the time.”
“Yea dad! There is nothing to worry about. Plus we’ll be living next to Ro and her boyfriend! They’re like 3 doors down from the apartment we rented.” she said, casting me a reassuring smile.
So Lear was losing his little girl too? Not that, that made me feel any better… but at least I wasn’t the only one… I guess.
I sighed loudly then forced this cheap smile at them. I wasn’t happy at all, but I guess you got to let them go sometime. They’re not 5 anymore. I guess in my mind, I never stopped believing that…
“Just make sure you tell Pa pa before you go an leave us forever.” I joked and they laughed. I had to humor myself or I was going to cry. Yea… can’t have that. They already think I’m too soft.
Makenzie’s Point of View
It was a mere 3 weeks, and they were already leaving! God, it was like they couldn’t wait to get out! Eh, who needs them around anyways… more space for me. I could turn their room into an office or something.
“Good bye Micki!” Kaylee shouted from their old car.
“Yea, see yah Mick! Stay out of trouble, and please… keep dad sane. He’s taking this hard.”
I just had to laugh to myself. Keep dad sane, eh? I’ll try my best, but I can’t even keep myself sane!
Rolling my eyes I waved at them “Yea, yea. Drive safe, and all that stuff. See yah!”
Then just like that they were gone. It was going to be pretty strange without them here all the time, but I know I’ll get use to it. Well, eventually anyways. Dad wasn’t the only one freaking. Shadow seemed to be very concerned with the all the commotion going on as well. Maybe she thought I was leaving her, because she kept eyeballing me to no end. I can assure you, I’m not going anywhere. I don’t have any desire to be alone…
“Stop looking at me like that, Shadow. I’m not going anywhere you weirdo.”
To say my Pa pa gave me a heart attack would be an understatement! I literally felt like I died, that’s about how bad he scared me! Here I was minding my own business, then he pops out of no where looking like the genie from Aladdin.
“GOOD GOD! You scared me half to death! Why were you creeping up on me like that?!” I sputtered out all at once.
He chuckled, but kept his position. “I wasn’t creeping, kid. I was merely watching quietly. So, you going to miss them?”
I strugged my shoulders. “I guess.” Of course I was lying, not that that got by him.
He smirked. “Ah. I see. So, your not planning on moving anytime soon? Right?”
“Oh god… not you too. It’s bad enough dad is having a nervous break down, now your worrying about me leaving? Relax pops, I’m not going anywhere.” Laughing, he pulled me into a hug and held onto me tightly.
“Good, cause I wasn’t going to let you go anywhere, anyways!” Oh alright then. So if I wanted to move I wasn’t allowed? We should see if that day ever came. Not that it’s going too, but I’m not going to tell him that.
“Oh get out of here.” I laughed “You know you and dad would be jumping for joy if you had the house to yourselves.”
He gave me this ‘I-guess-your-right’ kind of face, before telling me to get my butt inside the house. Hey! I’m old enough to make my own choices…
“So, Makenzie.” he continued on “Now that we’ve talked about Jeremy, do you think you’re ready to move onto your nightmares?” I guess you could say I was ready, in a way. It’s been weeks since I’ve been coming to see Caleb, and all we ever talked about was the troubles I’ve had with Jeremy. He told me that what I had with Jeremy at one point was a form of Stockholm syndrome. That even though Jeremy hurt me, I still had this need to protect him. Sounds strange, but there it is.
It’s funny though, because I always thought talking about Jeremy would be the hard part. Turns out, it’s the nightmares I didn’t want to talk about. I guess I just didn’t want him to think I was crazy or something. He’s really grown on me these last few months…
So me, being me… I tried to change the subject. “Uh, I noticed you got a new hair cut. Tired of looking like a girl?”
His face spread a grin, then he rolled his eyes at me.
“What? I was just saying I took notice. It looks nice. Honest.”
“Well, people around the building said it looked too “90-ish”. So I went with something short and simple. Not that I care what people think.” he chuckled, leaning forward in his chair.
“Clearly you care a little to actually get it cut!” I teased at him. He rolled his eyes once more then strugged his shoulders.
“As much as I’d love to talk about my hair… we’re here for you. Now, we can just stop with the changing of subjects, and get back to what really matters.” he stated boldly, giving me this ‘I-know-what-your-doing’ look.
Shoot. He catches on quick. “You caught that?”
He nodded his head. “Well, alright. I guess we can start on my nightmares now. You helped me through Jeremy, so I trust you’ll help me through this.”
“It’s what I’m here for.” Yea, yea… I get it.
“Now just rest your head back, and close your eyes.” he started, gesturing for me to lay back.
I slid down on the couch and rested my head on the back of it. I didn’t really want to do this, but what other choice did I have? He was the therapist, he knew better than I did.
“Now, explain to me what ever you can remember from your nightmares. The key points that stick out or frighten you the most. Just take your time, relax, and concentrate.” he continued on. His voice was soft, and at one low tone.
I let out a deep breath, then started to think back on my nightmares. It wasn’t going to be hard to remember them, because I have them all the time. The most I know about my nightmares though, is that it’s called ‘Nightmare Disorder’ and it’s from a terrible incident I had as a child or small baby. Of course I don’t remember it, but my mind sure does. Other wise I wouldn’t get these stupid nightmares!
I laid there, thinking hard on the re-occurring dreams I’ve had. The man or boy… what ever he was, was more clear and I got to see his face. It startled me at first, but I was fascinated by who or what he was. Caleb kept talking me through everything, as I explained the guy and the area around him. He told me to continue on, to try and think past that. So… I did.
I told him about how I saw myself as a little kid in the dream, and how frightened I always seemed. I was always in this strange, unfamiliar house with no one around but me and that creepy man. I also told him that I never even knew he was a man when I first started having the nightmares. I just thought he was some creepy monster, with icy hands. Oh yea, I also explained to him how I actually felt the cold he brought around me, and how he always seemed to go towards my throat and mouth.
It never got further than that though. I would always wake up before he could get his ice cold hands around my throat.
“Now Makenzie…” he stated “I want you to keep your eyes closed, and I want you to think back on everything you just explained to me. The creepy presence, the icy touch, the fear that he brought you. Obviously this was someone you knew when you were smaller, thus the reason you see yourself young. Can you think back to someone who sounds like this? Someone who caused you to be afraid?”
I just continued to lay there with my eyes closed tight. I ran the dreams over and over again in my head, until something sparked.
“I-I see my dad putting me to bed. I look like I’m one, maybe two.” I choked out. This was just too unreal for me. I saw this type of stuff in the movies but I never knew it was real! Could people actually remember things that far back?
“Alright, don’t let that image go. What else do you see?”
My memory just continued on to me sleeping in my crib. I didn’t really get much out of that, or why is was related to my dreams. Caleb told me to just keep my eyes closed, but if anything got too serious that I was to open them. Far as I can see… I was just looking at myself sleeping in bed.
(Sorry for the hairs being different. Peggy hairs don’t work for toddlers-kids anymore cause of the new update. :/)
It wasn’t until a little bit after that, that a figure came into my room. He was wearing all black, and he had that spiked hair that I remembered all too well. He was leaning over my bed, just watching me as I slept.
It wasn’t until he stuck his arm in my crib, and neared his hand closer to my mouth… that everything made sense. The fear, the obsession that this man had in my dream to grab at my neck, the fact that I got an icy feeling from it. It was all because of him! That boy that use to live with us when I was little! It’s all so clear now!
The images continued to play in my head. The boy took his hand and covered it over my mouth, then pinched my nose shut with the other. His hands… they were always SO cold. He would keep them there until I would squirm and beg for air. He would let go, and before I had the chance to scream… he’d do it again and again! Laughing as he watched me suffer to breath. My eyes would beg for him to stop but he wouldn’t until I was near unconsciousness.
That’s when he would high-tail it out of my room, and let me scream bloody murder. I bet he even waited by the door and listened to my screams. I remember shouting so loud my voice could be heard from outside. Tears would be streaming down my cheeks, and my eyes would be bright red. Not only did I wail for my parents, but I remember shaking the crib trying to free myself!
That’s when my Pa pa or Dad would come in the room with a terrified look on their face, rushing to my side. I remember my Pa pa picking me up that night though, and taking me out into the living room where my sisters and Dad were watching TV. Before he got too far though, I remember glancing over his shoulder to see-
HIM. He was just standing there, watching me as I struggled to settle down. That’s when he shook his head and mouthed… “Poor Makenzie.”
And just like that, my mind drew a blank. There was no more, and honestly I didn’t think I could take watching that any longer. I don’t know how long that boy did that to me when I was younger, or the fact as to why, all I knew… was that he was the one who caused me to be who I am today. It’s HIS fault I suffer! Dang it I thought Jeremy ruined my life! That jerk did! How could you try to suffocate a baby?! What’s wrong with him!?
My mouth just hung open. I was speechless. “I-I-I don’t understand.” I managed to say “All this time? All these nightmares? Were because of what some kid did to me? I don’t even know who he is!”
Caleb sighed softly then opened his mouth to speak “It’s going to be alright Makenzie. You don’t need to know who he is. This boy, he’s not going to hurt you anymore. Your mind was troubled by what it encountered and the only way it knew to cope was to create these re-occurring nightmares. Everything is going to get easier from now on. Now that you know what happened, we can get you through it, and talk about your worries or if you have more questions.”
I shook my head at him. “How do you know it’s going to get easier?! How do I even know this isn’t something else my brain is making up?! I’m… I’m so confused!”
“Makenzie. That’s why we’re here. To make sure it gets easier on you. Venting about Jeremy, and taking actions to make sure he never bothers you again. Didn’t that make it easier?” I nodded my head “Well then… we’re going to try some of the same methods with your nightmares too. We’re going to get you through this, alright?”
I lifted my head up to face him, and nodded my head once more. He’s right. I’m going to be alright, and I’m going to get through this! My brain isn’t making this up, it was showing me a memory I had forgotten. Well, guess what?! It’s not going to keep me down! These nightmares are as good as gone!! Mark my words…
Glancing up at the clock, Caleb sighed “Well… guess our session is over for today. I’ll see you next week, alright Makenzie? Oh, and please go home and get some rest. It’s been a tough day for you.”
I stood up, inching closer to the door. I couldn’t help but get this flutter in my stomach as I looked at him. He-he actually helped me. No one else has ever been able to do anything like this before. No matter how hard they tried. I don’t know what it was… but something inside me just grew attached to him. Like… I actually wanted to be with him.
“O-Okay.” I smiled slightly “I’ll see you then.”
“Oh dad! You should have seen him. He helped me through everything that I never thought anyone could. He spoke so softly to me, and kept telling me I was going to be okay. I’ve never felt so good about anything in my life. He’s the only one who’s ever given me the time of day, and he gets me.” I blubbered to my Pa pa, who was sitting next to me, sipping on his coffee.
He threw his hand up and told me to “Stop right there.” What’s wrong now?! I’m telling him how wonderful Caleb is, and he’s getting all protective parent on me! Can’t I have excitement for once in my life?!
“What? What did I say?”
“Micki… there is a lot of wrong in everything that you’ve just told me! First off, of course your therapist gets you! That’s his job sweet heart. He went to school to help people like you get through tough times. Micki, I don’t want you falling for some man that is never going to give you the time of day. Plus it’s strictly against the rules for a doctor and a patient to get involved with each other. He can get into a lot of trouble if you tried anything, and he got caught.” he sighed rubbing the sides of his temples.
“Dad you just don’t understand-“
He cut me off before I could even finish! “No Makenzie. I do understand. And as a parent I’m warning you now, so you don’t go and make mistakes you’ll regret. Sweet heart there are plenty of good men out there for you. You don’t have to settle for the first one you ‘think’ is the perfect guy, just because he helped you.”
I just glared at him. There is no way I’m listening to this anymore. “I’m done here. I’m going to call someone I KNOW will understand, because he actually listens to what I have to say!”
My dad let out a loud sigh “Alright Micki, but I warned you. Oh, and don’t even try to say this to your dad. He’ll have a cow.”
I rolled my eyes at him, then went to go get my phone. Forget them, I’ll find someone who will listen. See? This is the reason I don’t tell them things.
After calling Jed to meet me at the horse ranch, I took Shadow out and went and headed over there. As soon as we got there she bolted from my grasp, just running around the field like a horse on crack. I swear I have the messed up horse. She’s always running around like a crazed animal, where as the other ponies and horses are all calm and mellow. I got to say though… I really do love that knuckle head. She definitely stole a huge spot in my heart.
“Shadow for the love of god! Take it easy, your going to hurt yourself!” Yea, like that was going to work…
Giving up on my delusional horse, I went and took a breather on a bench near by. Caleb was right, it was a rough day. I should of just went and took a nap at home, but I was too irritated to be there right now. I needed a close friend to vent to, and Jed was the perfect person. Him and me always got along so well. Plus he made me laugh, which lightened my dark situations at times. I guess besides Caleb, he’s the only other person who understood me.
I sat up pretty quickly, and just stared at him for a second. I was a little groggy, and my eyes were screaming that how ever long I was asleep, wasn’t enough.
“Jed?” I managed to say after a few seconds.
“Oh is this a bad time? Cause I can come back after your wittle nap.” he teased, his grin spread ear to ear.
I stretched and yawned, smiling the whole way. “Oh ha ha. It’s your fault for not getting here on time. Made me bored of waiting.”
He laughed loudly, then sat down next to me. “Oh you know that’s a lie.”
“Is it?” I teased, both of us smiling at one another.
He laughed “Yea, I would have to say so! But other than you being bored of me, what’s up?”
I shoved him slightly “I’m not bored of you!” He laughed, then I continued on “It’s just… I have to ask you about something.”
His face grew intent, and he listened closely “About what?”
I took a deep breath. I really hoped he didn’t take it like my pa pa did. Arg, why am I thinking like this?! Jed is my best friend! He’ll completely understand.
“Okay. Say you like someone, but you think it’s too awkward to say anything because of the relationship they have. What would you do?” I asked eagerly. Okay, so I left out a lot of details. I just didn’t feel like being lectured again. Like I said before… I change my mind like my underwear. You can never be too cautious.
All the color drained from his face, and beads of sweat formed at the top of his head. Okay. Not the exact answer I was looking for. “I-I… I would… uhh…”
“Jed, what’s wrong?” I asked puzzled. Cause seriously I didn’t get what was eating at him! It was just a question…
“W-w-who is th-this person?” he stuttered, his breaths small and broken.
Ugh. Was he going to make me actually say? Finnne.
“Well, he’s someone I see a lot. Like… a lot-lot.” Yea, I was still beating around the bush.
Jed swallowed, and he looked at me with this nervous expression “I guess, if you came out and told him t-the truth he would tell you how much he cares about you too, but has always been too afraid to say anything.”
“Wow. That was really touching.” I smiled at him, and he weakly smiled back “I guess your right. If I just tell Caleb I like him, he’ll probably tell me the same thing back! I don’t care what my dad says, he does get me! He understands me like no one else. Well, besides you Jed. You always get me.”
Jed’s whole demeanor dropped, and his expression went south “C-caleb? Oh…”
“Yea you remember? My therapist? I know I was just beating around the bush with the info, but I didn’t want you to judge me like my Pa pa. I knew you wouldn’t, but still. You know how I am.” I sighed, letting out a breath of relief.
Jed got up from the bench, then quickly sputtered out “I-I gotta go.” before high-tailing it away from me!
I couldn’t help but think it was something I did. Jed was the only real friend I had now. I could trust him with my life if I had too. Seeing something bother him, bothered me! Great, now I’m going to be bummed all night. Sigh.
But instead of just sitting there wondering what I did wrong, I fetched Shadow and we both walked home together. Well, I walked anyways. Crazy horse.
Later that night I tossed and turned in bed. There was so much going on inside my head, I didn’t think I would ever get to sleep. I guess I was wrong though, cause eventually my eyes closed tight and I was snoring Z’s. I guess rest is all I really needed. This day has really been an emotional roller coaster.
I was standing near a road. The wind was gently blowing against my face, brushing strands of hair past my eyes. I could see the faint glow of a street lamp down the road, but the brightest light was coming from the stars. A man picked my hands up gently into his. They were so warm, and soft to the touch. He took his thumbs and rubbed the tops of my hands, just stroking gently, causing chills to run up my arms.
I smiled in awe at him, and the way he held me so softly. My eyes shone bright, full of life. I didn’t want the moment to end. I wanted the night to continue on forever. Just being in that spot with him holding my hands.
It wasn’t suddenly, but more of a gradual pull, placing me inches from his lips. He stroked my hair gently, and smiled bright into my eyes. Even though I couldn’t tell who this man was, I knew he cared more for me than life itself. The way he held onto me, never too tight, but a grip strong enough to let me know that he was protecting me.
That’s when I woke up. I threw the blanket off of me, and just… sat there. I wasn’t sweating or trying to catch my breath. For once in my life, I was… calm. My dream – yea that’s right MY DREAM – put me at ease. I felt so relaxed, and felt that the weight of the world was no longer on top of me.
Of course me, being me… I went over to the mirror and gently tapped my face a few times. I just had to make sure this dream wasn’t well… a dream. That it was actually real, and not some nightmare trying to scare me. But I actually was awake, and that actually was a dream! Not a nightmare, but a full blown dream! I was in complete shock. I didn’t know if I should go back to sleep and wait for another one, or run around telling people I had a dream for once!
I glanced at my clock and noticed it was 5:30 am. Yea… I think I’ll skip the screaming through the house part.
But I couldn’t go back to sleep either! I was just too excited. The only other ‘person’ I could think of to tell was Shadow… but she was sleeping too. So I just waited in my room, checking almost every 5 seconds to see if she had woken up yet.
It wasn’t until about 7:20 am when I saw that Shadow had waken up. Today was my parents off day, so I knew they would be sleeping in. I didn’t want to go in their room and jump on their bed like it was Christmas morning or something. I’m 20, that’s kinda creepy now.
So instead I rushed out the front door – still in my PJs mind you- and clung to Shadows neck. I felt like I was squeezing the life out of her, but for some reason she didn’t seem to mind.
“Oh Shadow. This dream was a sign! Caleb and I are meant to be together. Just you wait and see!”
Thanks for reading! Okay, so I’m not a professional Therapist or anything so I *tried* my best at that part. So, don’t kill me or anything if I got things wrong. Remember this is sims. ;P I know for a fact people over-come a lot of different things in therapy, so I thought… why not a Nightmare disorder? Which is indeed REAL. So now I hope everyone understands why she was having those nightmares! Brent was literally trying to suffocate her while she slept!! Then even when she woke up, he’d do it again and again! That caused a traumatic time in her young life, which developed into her nightmares. Then we go onto the whole Caleb obsession thing… she’s in therapy for help, yet… low and behold she finds another issue.
On a brighter note, I love Shadow! :]
I really hope you liked the chapter though. I’m really sick, but I wanted to get this chapter out ❤ Once again, sorry if it seemed crappy or choppy… or what ever happens when a chapter is bad. ;x