Noah’s Room 🙂
Jed’s Point of View
Have you ever heard someone say “time flies”? Well it’s definitely an understatement! I mean, one minute I’m bringing my son home from the hospital, and the next he’s gained a few pounds and already getting mobile! Where the heck did all that time just go?! Next he’ll be bringing home girls, and then tell me he’s getting married! … Well, okay, maybe I’m getting a little ahead of myself.
Aside from that, I’m actually so proud to be called a Daddy. Just has a nice ring to it, yah know? Micki tries her best when it comes to caring for Noah, but she oftentimes gets stressed with things. I tell her to just relax, and not over work herself. She just had him a few months ago for crying out loud. I’m here, I’ll handle him.
“Jeesh, Noah. Racking on the pounds kid!”
There does come times during the day where I’m at work, and can’t possibly care for him. Not that I don’t wish I could, it’s just I have to make a living for my family some way or another! Plus having to do double work since Kaylee isn’t around… being pregnant and all. She took full advantage of the time off cause she’s upset because the father of her kid left her. Anyways, I’m just thankful Scott and Fraser are retired now because what Micki can’t do, they do for her.
I guess you can say I feel more at ease knowing that Mick is getting rest she so deserves. Fraser and Scott give her that chance to nap throughout certain times of the day, while they show little Noah all the love and attention he craves. That kid? Always wants to be held! I’m a sucker for his little pleas and baby noises. Mick gets mad at me for it, but I can’t help it! He’s cute!
It was around 3 weeks later, and I got this strange knock at the door. It was my day off, and I was just in the kitchen with Martha- Errr, Fraser, when I heard it. Of course once Fray got into his “baking mode” there was no pulling him out of it. He wonders why we pick fun at him. So I had the honors to answer the door.
Whoa. “Um, wow, hey Kaylee.”
She threw her hand to her hip and scoffed “What’s THAT suppose to mean!?”
Oh gosh. I don’t need to get on this heavily pregnant woman’s bad side. I’d like to live to see my next birthday, thanks! “No-Nothing! I was just saying that, uh, haven’t seen you in awhile… so…” Smooooooth…
“Well…” she sighed, looking down at her stomach “If you haven’t noticed, I’m kind of about to explode. Thus, being the reason you haven’t seen me.”
I’m not even going to comment on that “Um, won’t you come-”
Bam! -In? Jeesh, she didn’t even give me a chance to finish my sentence! Just run into me with your big ol’ belly and get by me, why don’t cha? Not that I would say that to her!! I’d rather not press her buttons.
“Daddy! Pa pa!” she screeched from the door way “It’s me, Kaylee!!”
I never seen an old man run as fast as Fraser did! One minute he’s baking cookies, the next he’s cooing over his daughters belly. Alright, I know that a pregnant woman is a wonderful sight… but she’s a walking hormonal wreck! I’d rather not be the one in her line of fire. I mean, for crying out loud! Micki wasn’t even that bad. She just cried… A LOT.
“Oh sweetie.” he beamed “When is my lovely grand daughter suppose to get here?”
She giggled “Soon Daddy. At least I hope so! She’s driving me nuts!”
Hm, I wonder why?
After a second she turned to me “Jed?” I just looked at her. “Would you mind getting Micki for me? I need to talk with her.”
I nodded my head. I made it my personal mission to say next to nothing while she was here. I have no filter, what ever I think… just comes out of my mouth. Always gets me into some kind of trouble.
I bolted past Kaylee, and into my sons room where Micki was laying him down for his nap. She looked so adorable caring for Noah like that. It just warmed my heart to know she’s trying. I know she had a rough start, and thought horrible things… but she’s such a sweet mommy. If I told her that, she’d have my head. She likes to act tough, even though she really is a big softie.
I cleared my throat “Mick? Your sisters here. She says she needs to talk to you? I don’t know, but be careful! She’s on edge, and could blow up any minute!”
She shushed me, then nodded her head. Gee, sorry! I was just trying to warn her…
Makenzie’s Point of View
I swear I would have killed Jed if he woke up Noah! You just don’t know how hard it is to get that kid down for a nap! He’s always so alert so it takes me at least an hour to get him down. Other than that though, I can only imagine what Kaylee wants. I’ve stopped taking her calls because all she does is whine to me about her ex leaving her high and dry. I can’t take all that stress! It’s not even just that, she also doesn’t want any of my advice or encouragement. She just wants to be babied. I can only take so much before I lose my head!
I closed the door gently behind me, leaving Jed in the room. Here goes nothing…
“Kaylee… Heeeeyyyy….” I laughed nervously.
“Makenzie.” She glared. Her voice was so stern, I felt like I was in trouble! Maybe I was? Oh boy….
Her eyes narrowed at me, sending this shiver up my spine. I dislike being around hormonal pregnant women. I could barely deal with myself….
“How could you! I’ve been calling you for weeks, and you just ignored me!! I’m your sister, your suppose to comfort me in my time of need! He left me Makenzie! Your boyfriend didn’t leave you, he’s in the next room holding your baby….” He better not be holding Noah.” I just needed someone to talk with, to keep me sane!”
Oh. Don’t we all?
I groaned, “But why ME? I mean, Lia is your twin, right? Shouldn’t you have some special connection to her? Like… feeling the same pain or something?”
She growled “That’s a bunch of bull! Don’t give me some lame excuse, just because you didn’t want to talk to me. Why couldn’t you just say that in the first place?! Instead of me wondering why you just had ignored me. Thanks for the explanation!!”
I’m just digging myself a hole… “Kaylee. I love you, I really do. I just couldn’t take all the stress anymore! I’m trying to take care of my son, write my books, and do everyday tasks! You wouldn’t even listen to the things I told you to do. You just kept complaining. How do you expect me to run with that?”
“FINE!” she cried out “If that’s how it’s going to be, then what ever! Forget you! To think I helped YOU when you needed it. I never just gave up on you when you would lock yourself away for months! I’m just going to go talk with Dad, he understands me better than YOU!”
Oh dear god… why me?! Why now? When I had thought all hope was lost, and Kaylee was going to get to me, Jed came out and signaled for me to follow him out the door. Was he helping me escape this emotional madness?! Oh thank you Jed! I love you even more now!
Did I mention how much I love this man? He took me as far away from that house as possible. Noah was napping anyways, so Papa and Dad could handle Kaylee whining at them. It’s their job to put up with her! Not mine! I’m the younger sister for crying out loud.
“Thanks for saving me back there, sweetie. I thought she was going to eat off my head! I don’t mind talking to her, I just needed a breather for awhile. I don’t blame her for feeling this way. She’s hurting cause she’s alone and pregnant. Trust me… it’s not fun.” I sighed, gazing out over the water.
He smiled over at me, “It was no trouble, Mick. I felt like you needed to get out of there as much as I did! We were both targets to her emotional havoc. Besides… I really needed to get you to myself today. There… there is something I’ve been trying to tell you.”
I looked over at him, “Oh? What might that be?”
He stood up, then gestured for me to come over to where he was. I just sighed, and pulled myself out of the lawn chair. What? I was comfortable just sitting there, letting the wind brush against my face! It was relaxing…
He smiled again, “You know I love you, right?”
I laughed at him “Of course I know that. You only tell me every single day.”
He took in a deep breath, “Then what I’m about to tell you, shouldn’t be a shocker at all…”
Okay, where’s he going with all of this?
He stared at me for a few seconds, and kept casting me these nervous grins. That’s never a good sign. Please tell me this isn’t something bad… that won’t make my day any better.
I sighed, “Jed? What is it? What happened?”
He widened his eyes and shook his head “No! Nothing happened…. it’s just, I’m trying to, uh, get the right words out. Prepare myself, if you will.”
Prepare himself? “For what? Jed you know you can tell me anything.”
“Well, I-I was going to… I wanted to-” he stuttered, holding his hands to his stomach. Wow, he was REALLY nervous about something.
“Jed, sweetie, it’s alright.” I smiled reassuringly at him. I didn’t want him to feel nervous to tell me things! What does that say about me? Nothing good.
He took a deep breath, his hand slowly going towards his pocket. “Mick… I just feel like-“
Ring! Ring! Well, isn’t that convenient? My phone has to go off right when Jed is trying to tell me about something. I know it was rude to pick it up, but for some reason I had this urge to. Like there was a reason I should pick it up. There was no name plastered across the phone. It only read “Unknown”.
“I’m sorry Jed! But… I think I should answer this.”
He gave me this sad look, then nodded his head, “Alright. T-that’s fine. Go ahead.”
The voice on the other line. That’s what I couldn’t believe! I hadn’t heard that voice in SO many years.
“KIM!? Oh my god! It’s been forever, how are you!?” I chimed with glee. I couldn’t help feeling all this happiness! I thought I lost contact with her forever! How did she even find my number?! Who cares! I’m just happy she did!
She sighed, “Micki? Can we meet somewhere? I’m in town… I need to talk with you. It’s sort of important.”
I nodded my head rapidly, as if she could see it “Of course! I don’t really know of any ‘good’ places to meet, but how about this little country bar about 5 minutes from where I live? I’ll give you the information when I get home. Is this your number?”
“Uh, yea. Thanks Micki. See ya.” Click. Even though I was excited to see my friend, I couldn’t help but feel this pang of sorrow. Just the way she was talking, and the tone of her voice. She sounded so… sad.
Getting so wrapped up in that phone call I nearly forgot about Jed standing there! Oh god, I hope he doesn’t feel bad for me blowing him off. Of course he heard everything I had just said, he was only standing a mere foot away from me.
So instead of approaching the subject, I tried to swoon my way out of it. “Sooooo…. Jed.” I smiled, wrapping my arms around him “What say you and me do this little date another time? My friends in town, and she sort of… needs to speak with me.”
He let out a deep breath, “I guess so.”
Aw… now he’s going to make me feel bad. “Hm, alright. In trade for this evening, how about me and you have a little… ‘fun’ before I leave tonight? If we hurry… there might be time for 2 rounds.”
Well, that was easier than I thought it would be! I never saw him move his feet so quickly!! You would think I just offered him a million dollars. Although… he is a guy.
“I got the car keys! Let’s GO!”
The only thing I could do was just laugh at him! He does realize we walked here right? Oh well, I’ll give him a head start…
After my little ‘rendezvous’ with Jed, I went and prepared myself for the night out. I text Kim the name of the bar to meet me at, then went and took myself a very long and hot shower. It felt so nice to just let the water run down my body. Did you ever realize you think the most when your in the shower? Your mind really does wander all over the place…
After drying off, I went to put my son to bed. Jed was in the kitchen probably making a mess, so it was left for me to do this tonight. Not that I ever minded in the first place. I really do love my son, even though I still feel like he deserves better than me. Jed always tells me if I feel that way, then that just means I love him more than I realize. To want someone better than yourself to raise someone you care for more than you could imagine. I guess he’s right… I really do just want what’s best for my baby. He’s the only baby I’ll ever have, and so I have to make sure I do right by him.
“Good night Noah. Mommy loves you so much.”
Before I left, I stopped off into the kitchen to say a quick good bye to Jed. Like I said… making a mess.
“Bye, baby! Have a good time. Don’t worry about the kitchen. I’ll clean it up before you get home.”
Sure you will… “Bye, Jed.” I laughed, then rolled my eyes.
I arrived at the little bar, only moments after I left. I was really kind of nervous to be seeing Kim after all these years. We were quite close back in High school. She always gave terrible advice, but she was a great friend nonetheless. I hated that me moving, and that situation with Jeremy made us grow so far apart. Well, that was the past… and this is now. It’s time to turn over a new leave, and start fresh!
When I got there she was sitting at one of the bars, and had already ordered herself a drink. I never really touched the stuff before, so I wasn’t planning on doing that tonight. I don’t like what alcohol does to people. It really scares me.
Ugh, why is it so hard to go up to her!? She use to spend countless nights at my house, we’d tell each other everything. Why am I having such a hard time now? I just need to suck it up, and go over to her. Not be some scared nervous wreck. I really worry to much about everything…
I took a deep breath, then pulled up a chair next to her. She placed her glass down, then just looked at me for a few seconds. We had one of those awkward pauses, before I finally broke the ice. I was going to say something about the weather, but that’s just dumb.
“Wow, Kim.” I started “It feels like forever since the last time I saw you. How you been?”
She strugged her shoulders, “It’s been what it’s been. Makenzie before you try and make this a happy little get together, there is something I really need to tell you. I don’t think your going to like it all that much…”
Aw, just great. Now someone is really going to tell me bad news! I should of just stayed with Jed. At least his wasn’t…
I sighed, “What’s wrong Kim? What ever it is, I can handle it. I’ve been through enough to handle just about anything now…”
She just looked at me, as if she really didn’t know how to go about telling me her so called ‘news’. I was getting a little frustrated. I was tired of people holding stuff in! Just tell me already!!
She didn’t even have to finish what she was saying. The moment I saw that flash of red hair, and those dark blue eyes… my whole demeanor went south. I felt a little dizzy, and my throat was so dry. I couldn’t believe what I was seeing! JEREMY… Why was he here?! Why did she bring him HERE? I never wanted to see or hear him about him again! Caleb helped me over come all my fears and worries about ever seeing Jeremy. Low and behold, he’s standing nearly 3 feet from where I’m sitting! Oh god… please don’t let me have a nervous break down! PLEASE!
“Makenzie? Wow… it’s been awhile.”
Awhile!? What is he going on about? I was never suppose to see him EVER again! Oh god… I have to get out of here!
“KIM!? What’s going on?! WHY IS HE HERE?!” I shouted, my mouth hung open. My heart was beating so fast, and my palms were getting sweaty. I couldn’t help but feel so nervous around him. All those cruel things he’s done to me… any sane person would feel the same! That man put me in therapy, the nerve of him to show up in MY new life!
“Now Micki…” she sighed “Don’t go getting all crazy on me. Please let me explain first…”
Oh, yea, I have GOT to hear this! “FINE! Explain!”
She got up from her seat, and walked over towards him. Before I knew it, she was hugging him! Then she KISSED him! What the heck? They’re together? Oh god… please tell me I’m in another nightmare.
“Micki… I-I love him. He’s changed Micki! I swear to you he’s changed. He’s a great man, and he loves me.” she sighed, letting go of their grasp.
“It’s true.” he piped in “I was a mess after you left. Kim was always by side every step of the way. She got me the help I needed, and then… well… we just sort of happened.”
Alright. They may think this is some sort of twisted joke, but I’m not falling for it. Jeremy will never change! All those rotten things he’s done to me! What does he want? Forgiveness?! I’ll never forgive that lunatic for as long as I live. Kim’s as stupid as I was, to ever think that monster can love. He’s obviously done to her, what he did to me. Feeding her lies, telling her shes important… Screw him! I won’t watch him steal my best friend, and then have done to her what he did to me!
“Get away from her Jeremy! Your not going to hurt her like you did to me. Kim, don’t listen to him. He doesn’t love you!” I pleaded, my shouts filling the entire bar. Thank god there wasn’t anyone else there besides the bar tender. Other wise this would draw a lot of attention.
“Micki please!” she cried out “He really is different now. You don’t know how many times he has wanted to face you again, to apologize for all the wrong he caused you. We weren’t meant to happen, we just did… besides that though, that’s not why we came to you.”
“What then? What else could you possibly have to tell me?”
Tears fell from her eyes “Micki, we have no where to go, we only have 40 bucks to our name, and- and- … I’m pregnant. I didn’t know who else to turn to! I flipped off my parents, they want nothing to do with me. You already know Jeremy’s parents kicked him out along time ago. We’re scared Micki. We need you to help us. I don’t know how I’m going to get through this. I keep thinking about our child. What are we going to do?!”
Jeremy wrapped his arms around Kim, “Please, Makenzie.”
Oh god. Why did they have to come to me?! How am I suppose to answer to this? Yea, sure, just come live with me and my infant son. Oh, this is my boyfriend Jed… Jed this is the monster who caused my life to be a living hell! I feel so badly for Kim, but I can’t just let her move in out of no where! What about my parents… and the fact that I can’t be around Jeremy without getting this gut wrenching feeling!?
I sighed “What do you expect me to do, Kim? Just invite this man into my home? I love you, but… I can’t live with him. He’s caused my life so much pain, and confusion. How do you expect me to just let someone like HIM move in, without fear striking me everyday? You do remember what he did to me, right? RIGHT?”
She cried even harder, “H-h-he’s changed! P-please! You have to believe me.”
“I can only offer my home to you. NOT him.”
She wiped away her tears, and shook her head no “I have to be with him. He means everything to me.”
With that I took some money out of my pocket, shoved it at her and brushed past them. There is no WAY I am letting him live with me and my family. I love Kim, but I can’t risk that monster being around my baby. Even worse, I can’t risk him around me. Everything he ever did to me? Raping me? Cursing me out, and throwing me out in the cold? I just… can’t.
The entire ride home the only thing I could think about was Kim and her pleading. I pictured myself in her position, and how I would feel. What if that was me pregnant, and I had a boyfriend someone didn’t like. How would I feel having no where to go, and no one to depend on? The thought just brought tears to my eyes. I can’t just leave Kim and her baby out in the cold. I only gave her a few hundred dollars. They’re lucky if that last them a week. Oh god.. I don’t know what to do! I’m so torn…
When I got home, I just drug myself all the way into my room. I couldn’t even make it to my bed, I just collapsed onto the floor, crying harder than I have in a long time. I tried hard not to wake Jed, but I just felt this deep guilt building up. The only way I could express my pain was through crying.
My cries startled him from his sleep. He crawled out of bed, and walked over to where I was sitting on the ground.
“Micki?” he questioned in a groggy voice “What are you doing on the floor?”
I looked up at him, my eyes filled with tears “I’m… crying.”
He sighed, a frown spread across his face. He’s probably thinking ‘oh here she goes again…’ I don’t think there will ever be a time where I don’t fall into some sort of inner battle, and cry my eyes out. I hate him seeing me like this, but I cry when I’m sad. I can’t help it.
He sat down on the rug next to me, then scooched closer. I wiped the tears from my eyes and just looked at him puzzled. What was he doing on the ground? I was the depressed mess… he can just go back to bed. But, like the wonderful boyfriend he is… he grabbed me close and just held me. He let me cry into his shoulder, and he would also occasionally kiss me. It made me feel better to be held like that, but the pain was still there. I was still unsure of what I should do!
Jed calmed me down after awhile, and then I went on to tell him about everything that happened tonight. He really didn’t know what to say to me either. On one hand he was against it because of Jeremy, but then the other he was for it because he felt bad for Kim and her impending baby. So great, he felt the same way I felt! That didn’t help the situation at all…
Our ‘insightful’ discussion was cut short though, because Noah decided that it was high tide someone picked him up. Not that, that was a surprise… he’s actually right on cue.
“I’ll get him.” Jed sighed, picking himself off the ground. Good, I’m glad he’s getting him, because I’m just so worn out…
Here’s my wittle Noah! I just love him to pieces!! ❤ His traits are Artistic and Brave.
Time trickled by and my decision still stood unknown. How was I suppose to choose?! Jed didn’t know, my parents were against it, and I was more confused than anyone. The only stress relief I got was from taking care of Noah believe it or not. Just watching him play, and hearing his little babble. It brought smiles to my face.
“Dada? Daaa daaa!”
“He’s working hunny. It’s time for your lunch though sweet-pea! Come on.”
Why do babies always say daddy first? When do mommy’s ever give some lovin’?
Well, it was less stressful when he would actually listen to me! Why does he think it’s okay to do what ever he pleases? I swear I blame this on Jed and my parents. They spoil him rotten because he’s the little baby around the house. He’s constantly giving me a hard time because I know how to say N-O.
“Stop it Noah! I’m trying to feed you lunch! After this your going right down for your nap. I don’t even care if you cry. I need some rest!!”
It took me over an hour just to feed him, clean up after him, and then give him his bath. He kept throwing cheerios at my head and giggling. It’s not funny to throw food! Gosh he’s such a little monster. He’s lucky he’s cute.
“Da da?” he questioned again. He used the word Dada for everything. I don’t even think he knows what it means, it just sounds right to him.
“No, your going to bed. This cute puppy face might work on your daddy but it sure as heck doesn’t work on me. Remember kid, I’m the tough one. Good night Noah. I love you.”
Of course the moment I shut off his light and closed the door, he started to scream. I just let him go. What am I suppose to do? He has to learn when bed time is…
I threw myself down at the kitchen table and just let out a loud sigh. I was so tired of this stupid choice I had to make. Kim didn’t have much money left, she let’s me know all the time. She constantly calls me and text me. Pleading with me to just give her a few months living with me, that she promises they’ll be out before I know it. I just don’t know if I can take that risk! This isn’t an easy choice I have to make… it doesn’t help that the people around me don’t know what they want either. Well, my Pa pa does. He said he didn’t like the idea at all, but they all told me it was MY choice! Why can’t they choose for me?
“Dad, what do I do?! I can’t take this anymore. It’s driving me crazy.”
He turned around towards me and sighed “Micki, Noah is just going to cry. He’s a baby, get over it.”
I laughed then shook my head. “Not Noah. I’m talking about Kim. I’m scared for her dad… but at the same time I’m scared for myself! What would you do?”
“Micki, something like this you have to figure out on your own. I can’t control everything you do. Sure, I don’t like the idea very much… but I can’t force you to do anything. If you want to take in your friend and that… MAN…. then so be it. I see both points of view, but I honestly am as lost as you are. I feel bad for Kim, but I don’t know if I should trust Jeremy around you.”
I sighed, “I don’t know either…. I think I might just go out and clear my head. Noah should be down for the rest of the night. He took me so long with ‘lunch’ that it’s actually his bedtime. If Jed comes home before I do, just tell him I went out to think things over.”
He nodded his head, “Will do. Oh, and be careful.”
Be careful? How did he know I was going to take Shadow out? Guess I’m just getting that predictable. I mean, ever since that one accident I had I’ve been helping Shadow get the hang of things ever since. In a way I guess you could say I’ve trained her in some sort of way to not run like a lunatic when I’m on her back. She just slowly trots down the road, letting me lead her.
“Come on girl…”
I went up and down that road at least 20 times, just back and forth. In my gut I knew what the right choice would be, even if everyone around me didn’t agree. I’m not the type to just throw people away, and never look back. I’ve had it done to me, so why would I want people to feel that same pain I felt? I do believe in second chances, even if it pains me to say it.
I know what I have to do… but I just hope to god it’s the right one.
“Take me home Shadow, I have to tell Jed.”
That very night I explained everything to Jed. Every detail to what I was going to do. I could see on his face that he didn’t like the idea very much, but what other choice did I have? Kim needed somewhere to stay, and even if Jeremy was with her… I couldn’t deny her a warm house and food. I told him though, that it was ONLY until after that baby was born. That in that time Jeremy was to work his BUTT off, and make some money for them to find a home. I thought it was a fair trade, considering that meant I rarely had to look at his smug face. I don’t care what Kim says, he hasn’t changed… I just can feel it.
Although… being pregnant again may put a damper on my plans.
Thanks for reading! Sorry if this chapter seemed crappy. I just felt that it could have been better, I don’t know. But anyways, Micki had to make a big choice on this decision to allow Jeremy into her home. She fought long and hard, trying to stay against it… but she placed herself in Kim’s shoes and felt the pain she felt. How could she throw her away like that? Especially since she’s pregnant… a hard choice, but she made it. Only to hope it comes back in her favor…