Noah’s Point of View
“I just don’t understand why he would want to go and find him! I tried warning him, and telling him his father was bad news… he just wouldn’t listen to reason!” Kim cried; her face buried into her hands.
God I feel so bad for her. I can’t believe Luke would just go after his crazy dad like that. No, I take that back… I do believe it. If I were him, I’d probably do the same thing. Then again, I’m talking about me. I’d do anything if I thought it was exciting enough.
“Kim…” my mom sighed, “You can’t beat yourself up over this! Luke made his bed, and now he has to lie in it. We’re going to get him back though. I don’t trust Jeremy as far as I can throw him.”
“H-how are we going to get him back? He’s probably there right now; staring at his father.”
Qiana spun on her heel, just glaring at dad and me.
“What are you looking at weirdo??” I growled.
She gave me a dirty look, “You two need to stop standing around! Our cuz is going after his loco dad. Go make a phone call or sumtin!!”
I groaned, “Do I have to?”
She narrowed her eyes, “UHM, YESH!? NOW GO!”
I rolled my eyes, “Alright, alright. Geez, you don’t have to yell…”
Earlier that day…
Luke’s Point of View
“Luke wait.” my mother sighed “Please just hear me out. I can’t take all this hatred you have towards me. I miss my son…”
I rolled my eyes, “Fine.”
She sighed again, “Luke, I only lied to you because I was trying to protect you. It’s not like I wanted to hide you from your father. He’s just a very terrible man, Luke! He not only hurt me, but he hurt your Aunt Micki as well. If you go after him, you’re going to regret it. I’m telling you this as your mother; I won’t allow you to see him.”
“Protect me? I don’t need you to protect me! I’m old enough now to know if I want to see my own FATHER or not! I understand keeping him from me as a kid, but I’m not a kid anymore! You didn’t have to lie to me continuously! Once I got old enough you should have just told me the truth!!”
I was on the break of rage. I’d had it up to hear with all this bullcrap! It’s her job as my mother to tell me the truth; especially when it involves my dad. I don’t care what kind of crap he’s pulled; he’s still my dad.
“Keeping you from the truth was the right thing for me to do!! But fine, you want truth!? Your father was a rapist. He tortured women and then raped them. YOU’RE here because HE RAPED ME! Are you happy now Luke!? Are you happy you know that your father is a monster??”
“What the heck, mom!? You didn’t have to put it like that! I can’t believe you’re trying to freaking turn this on ME! I’m the victim here! You’re the one who lied to me for years on end. All I wanted was the truth, but you fed me lie after lie!” I screamed, trying my best to hold back from doing something stupid.
I just felt like my anger was boiling over. That if I didn’t stand back I would do something I’d regret. She just had me SO angry! I can’t believe she would say such a thing as that! I KNOW what he DID! She didn’t have to say it like that…
“Luke, I-I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to say it like that. But it’s the truth, Luke. You’re father did unspeakable things to me. Think of it from my point of view. How would you tell your own baby how he came about?”
“I’d tell him the freaking truth!” I shouted “I wouldn’t keep him from something as big as this. I’d tell him because I know how much it hurts. How do you think I felt when I learned about my father through a computer screen? My own mother was right there the entire time. The one person I could trust with my life, and she was making me live a lie.”
“I’m done here, I’m going to find my father…”
I didn’t even give her a chance to reply to that. I was so tired of hearing anything she had to say. She kept feeding me the same excuse over and over. I’m done with excuses; I’m going to find my father. I want to see what he has to say in all this. I just have to know for myself.
It wasn’t really that hard to find my dad. I knew where he was since the night I read about him in that news article. He was located at AP Psychiatric Institute. Such a wonderful place to meet your dad for the first time…
I got there about 2 hours later. The sun had already set, and that just made me even more uncomfortable about the situation. I mean, who wants to be in a crazy hospital when it’s dark out? Not me.
“Excuse me, miss?” I coughed, trying to get her attention.
She looked up from her screen, and smiled warmly at me.
“Can I help you?”
“Yeah, uhm, I’m looking for Jeremy Miller?”
Her eyes grew wide, “C-can I ask why?”
I sighed, “I need to see him. I need to ask him some things about his past.”
“And you are?”
Her eyes were glued to my face for which felt like forever. The expression on her face looked like I just told her the world was going to end in 3 hours. I mean I know my father is bad news, but I’m sure he’s not that bad.
“I- Uh-” she stuttered.
“Oh, do you need some form of proof? Well, my name is Luke Walker and I’m 17 years old. I could show you my birth certificate but it doesn’t have his name on it. My mom didn’t put any name in that spot. I have a school ID, uhm, I really don’t know what else I could give you.”
She shook her head no rapidly, “N-n-no that’s okay. I believe you.”
Oh my god, was she afraid of me?! She kept avoiding eye contact, and she was typing so fast I thought she would break the keyboard.
“Uhm, are you okay?” I questioned.
She nodded her head, “J-just fine. I’m just putting you in for a visit.” she stood up from her chair “F-follow me.”
I swear it took us about 10 minutes just to walk all the way over to where he was. We had to go through multiple doors, and a couple of scary looking guards. Every time they found out why I was there, their eyes would just go wide. I’m seriously starting to get a little nervous…
“Just a little further…”
We reached the guard – finally! – And the nurse cast him worried glances.
“Uhm, this boy is here to see Miller.” she gulped.
“Why?” he scoffed.
She sputtered, “H-he’s his son.”
The guard looked me up and down, smirking.
“He doesn’t stand a chance.” he chuckled “Go in.”
Well that was comforting…
The guard unlocked the gate and then the solid metal door. He gestured with his head for me to go in and the moment I stepped through the door, he slammed the cage, locking me in.
The nurse waited outside, glaring at me through the bars. I needed a private moment with this man, so I closed the heavy metal door behind me. Geez… they really don’t want this guy going anywhere.
“Be careful.” the guard laughed.
What is SO funny?!
There he was. He sat just there, staring at me. His dark blue eyes pierced right through me, and I seriously felt a chill go up my spine.
“Who the heck are you? I don’t have time for any conjugal visit.” he chuckled.
I ignored his snarky comment, and braced myself to step forward. I’ll admit I was terrified. I couldn’t leave here without answers though. I need to understand why he did the things he did. What was his reason?
“Uhm, you don’t know me, but I-I’m your son.” I gulped.
He stood to his feet, just eying me up and down. He laughed a few times, stroking his chin.
“I see.” he grinned wickedly.
“I came here for a reason. I just can’t go on another day until I understand why. Why did you hurt my mother? Why did you hurt any of those women? I just want to hear it from you.” I sighed.
He looked at me, and then looked at me some more. For a split second I didn’t think he was going to answer me at all.
“Oh.” he smiled “Well they weren’t Makenzie. They needed to understand that if they were going to do something that it had to be done right. No other woman was like her, so I had to do what I had to do… my boy.”
I gasped, “You-… what?! You hurt them because they weren’t my aunt?!”
His grin spread, “YOU know Makenzie?!?” he chuckled “So you must be the the kid from that brown haired chick I screwed. You know? She was the closest one ever to my beautiful Makenzie… though she just never did understand how to be her. No matter how many times I’d beat her to a pulp…”
I took a step back from him.
He’s sick! He’s completely SICK! I can’t believe he did that to my mom- Oh god, I think I’m going to throw up.
“YOU MONSTER!” I shouted, “You twisted jerk! How could you do things like that to my MOTHER?! And my aunt!? What the heck is your problem? Why are you so obsessed over her?!”
“Obsessed?” he laughed “I thought of it as love my dear boy. A love that will never die!”
“THAT IS NOT LOVE!” I screeched, “Loving someone is like how much I love Oph- I mean, loving someone is… is not like that!!”
“Oph? Oh you mean Ophelia. What I wouldn’t give to screw that little skank. She looks just like her mother.”
OH MY GOD!
“How do you even know about her?!” I demanded.
He smiled, “Oh, I have my ways.”
“Screw you!” I yelled, “I hope you rot in hell!!”
“Now, now… son.” he glared “Is that anyway to talk to your father?”
I chuckled, “YOU will NEVER be my father! Have fun dying, cause; I heard that you’re getting the needle. I swear I will do anything in my power to make sure that happens too!”
Completely out of nowhere a scowl grew across his face and the next thing I knew I was getting kicked back onto the floor.
“You think you can come in here and talk crap to me?! I could give a crap about you being my son. Like I care! You wanna know why I did it? Because I LIKED IT! It felt GOOD!”
After another second the guard came charging in through the door and nearly tackled him to the floor. It’s a good thing to because another second I could swear he was going to try and kill me.
I sat on the floor just watching the man bound up my fath- I mean, him and then sedate him. I’m so stupid. I’m an idiot and my mother was right. WHY didn’t I listen to her?! Why did I have to see it for myself?! WHY?!!?
The nurse came into the room, “I think it’s best you left now. Come on, I’ll walk you back.”
I nodded my head, and followed.
God I’m such a moron! How could I have done this to myself? Now I have to live with knowing the REAL him for the rest of my life. I couldn’t just listen to my mom and leave it alone. I had to be thick headed!
The nurse walked me into the main lobby. A few feet from the door I heard a woman screaming. The moment I saw her, my eyes just started filling with tears.
“Tell me where my son is!” she shouted.
“Ma’am I don’t know!” the doctor shrieked
“Don’t lie to me! I know you idiots let my son back to see that monster! I swear to god he better not have hurt my baby! I will sue you!”
She gasped, “Oh thank god!! Luke-“
I didn’t give her a chance to explain, I just ran into her arms. I never want to let go of her again. I never want to be mad or question anything she tells me. I love her so much. She was right for keeping me from him.
“Oh mom, I’m so sorry! I should have never come here! You were right! You’re always right; I’m stupid!”
She pulled me back, “Don’t you EVER say that! You’re not stupid Luke, you were confused. I’m sorry I never told you sweetie, I’m sorry I lied to you. I just wanted to do what was best for my baby.”
I nodded, “You were right. You were always right. I should have just listened to you. He’s a terrible man mom! He’s so SICK!”
She sighed, “I know Luke, I know. You only got a taste of him; I had to endure him for a year. Anything he said to you is how he treated me each and every day. I’m sorry you had to see it for yourself, but maybe now you have a better understanding. Maybe next time you’ll listen to me when I tell you something.”
I nodded again, “I promise mom. I love you so much!”
“I love you too, baby.”
Noah’s Point of View
It had been 2 months since everything went down with Luke. It was like he left one way and came back another. I was seriously mind blown. What ever happened at that hospital, I guess stayed at that hospital because they never spoke a word about it. I guess that’s for the better. I really don’t want to know what loco man did to my cousin.
On another stressful note, I was going on another date. This would mark 5 now since I’ve been out of the hospital. It’s like all these girls just date me to make other girls jealous. ‘Oh did you hear? I went out with Noah Terrey! Like, ohmygod, Noah?!’ It’s the same thing every time. Just once it would be nice to date a girl who didn’t want to be with me to make herself look good. I guess you could say the only real reason I’m going on these stupid dates is because I miss Riley. Yeah, I said it. That girl has got me hooked; I can’t stop thinking about her! I guess I thought if I went out with other girls it would help me get my mind off of her.
“Oh my god! Move your butt Noah, you’ve been in here for 2 hours!!”
I sighed, “Give me a minute! I’m just trying to fix my hair!”
She groaned, “Come on old man! Move it!”
GOD, I hate it when she calls me that! Just because my hip is bad doesn’t make me OLD!
You know what? Screw her; she’s going to get what’s coming.
“Oh, I’m sorry young lady… my hearing aid must be going bad. Did you say you wanted to move out? Well, bless my heart that sounds like a great idea.”
She growled, “Noah, I swear to god.”
“You swear you wanna move out? Well alrighty then! I’ll help you pack. Although be warned, I have a bad hip! So maybe I’ll just watch and make things harder on you. That’s what us old people do.”
She stormed off, “Alright I get it, jerkhole!”
I arrived at the restaurant about an hour later. I took even longer in the bathroom just to screw with Phea. I seriously don’t know where she gets off thinking she can control me. She thinks just because some poor guy is now ‘dating her’ if that’s what you want to call it, she can boss me around. Forget her and all that whining.
“Hey, Noah!” Daisy called out “I’m so excited for our date!”
Oh god. This girl is really perky. How did that even get by me when I agreed to this?
“Uh, hey there…” I waved back awkwardly.
All right Noah, you can get through this. It’s just one date and you will never have to do this again.
I walked over to her and she grabbed my hands and started swaying them! What the??
“Oh Noah, you have any idea how long I’ve been trying to get you to go out with me? Everyday I’d pass by you in the schoolyard and just think of what it would be like to actually hold your hand! Oh, would you look at that? I’m doing it now!” she laughed.
“Uhm, amazing.” I forced a smile “Shall we eat now?”
“Of course, follow me cutie!” she giggled.
“So okay I went ahead an ordered for us. I hope you don’t mind? Anyways, tell me about yourself. What does Noah like?” she gleamed.
I was becoming more and more uncomfortable by the minute. This just wasn’t me. Sure I’m all up for being romantic and stuff, but this was just weird.
“Uh, uhm, err… I like stuff?”
Wow could I sound more like an idiot?
“Ohhh…” she winked “I get it. You like… stuff. Well that’s all right I like stuff too. In fact I was hoping after this little date we could head back to my place. My parents are away for the weekend, so we have the house to ourselves.“
Holy crap, how did she get all of THAT out of the word ‘stuff’?!
“Whoa, whoa, whoa!” I threw my hands up “I’m up for that and all, but we sort of just met. Don’t you think that’s rushing things a little?”
“Well, no, not really. I mean since when does a GUY turn down an offer like that?” she sighed “But if you want to take our relationship slow, I understand. It’s okay if you’re shy…”
Wait, relationship?! Oh god, does she think this date means we are together?? I don’t want to be with her. I don’t want to be with anyone but… but… Riley.
“I’m sorry, what?” I choked out.
“I said it’s okay to be shy. You don’t have to sleep with me right now, we’ll do it another day.” she smiled.
“Alright back the truck up. First off Noah Terrey isn’t shy. I’ve taken on bigger things then just sleeping with a girl. Second, there is no ‘we’ or another day. I agreed to a date, and that’s what I’m doing. I didn’t know this meant I signed a contract to become your boyfriend or anything!”
I stood up, “I need to go.”
She glared at me, “Are you kidding me?! I went through all the trouble to set this up and you’re going to just bail on me?! Also, yes, I did think this meant we were together. You kept flirting with me, so I thought that was your way of telling me ‘lets hook up’!”
I sighed, “I’m sorry. I really am, but I just can’t see this working out. I just can’t!”
She growled, “Oh, and why is that? Am I not pretty enough for you or something?”
I shook my head, “God no! It’s nothing like that. It’s just- I just- I think I’m falling for someone else. I can’t stop thinking about her no matter how many dates I go on. I’m really sorry Daisy, I didn’t mean to hurt your feelings.”
Smack! She slapped me across the face! Okay, yeah, I guess I kind of deserved that…
“Tell the tramp you like she better watch her back. Oh, and you better watch yours as well!”
Oh god… another one? I need to stop dating crazy chicks.
I didn’t have time to worry about Daisy and her stupid threats. I need to focus on finding Riley. I’m so tired of putting this off! Obviously I’m freaking in love with this girl. God, why do I fight these feelings? What is wrong with me?
I left that restaurant and headed for the one place I was certain she could be- The hospital. I know it was a long shot, but what other choice did I have?
Nurse Linda smiled up at me, “Well if it isn’t my favorite patient. What brings you by?”
“Yeah, yeah very funny.” I smiled “I was wondering though, did you by any chance see that small peach colored hair girl? Her name is Riley, and she’s a bit of a snoot at times.”
She smirked, “Oh, and what’s she to you?”
My cheeks flushed, “N-nothing, I just wanted to see how her mom was doing.”
“Since I know you, I’ll let this slide by and I’ll help you out.” she grinned, typing at her computer.
She read the name Amanda Smokes aloud as she typed it out.
“Oh.” she frowned “Noah, I’m sorry but Mrs. Smokes passed away two days ago. Her family thought it was best to pull the cord. I’m so sorry.”
I gasped, “No way, that’s impossible! Riley would never agree to that.”
She pointed to the screen, “It says it right here. Her body is in the hospital morgue as we speak. I think you may need to pay your friend a visit Noah; she may be hurting. Once again, I’m really sorry.”
I nodded my head, “Thanks for your time.”
Thank god the nurse gave me her moms full name. There would be no chance for me to be able to find Riley’s house if she didn’t.
I took a deep breath, just staring at the front of the house. Come on Noah, you can do this. Just go talk to her. She’s probably really upset over this. That was a really tough choice to make for your own mother.
I hesitated at first. Well, okay, I hesitated a lot. I don’t understand myself! I mean if someone dared me to rescue a puppy from a burning building I’d do it without thinking, but if it comes to talking to Riley… I just freeze up!
Okay, you got this…
A man screamed from the other side of the door, and then I heard a bunch of locks being undone. Okay, now I’m even more nervous.
“Who the heck are you?” he glared “If you’re selling, I ain’t buying.”
“N-no, I was just looking for Riley. Does she even live here?“
By the look of this man and the way he was acting, I was pretty sure I had the wrong house.
“Why do you want to know if she lives here?! You’re not sleeping with her are you!? Boy I will kill you if you even think about touching her!!”
“N-no, sir! I was just coming by to see if she was all right. I heard her mom died; I’m just a friend.”
He shouted, “RILEY get your butt down here, there is a boy at the door!”
Riley came out a few moments later, her face was covered in regret. Aw, poor Riley. She must be so upset over losing her mom. Plus her, uh, father? I guess? He didn’t seem to be making the situation any easier on her.
“Hey, Riley. How are you holding up?”
“Noah?” she questioned. It was like she didn’t even realize I was standing there until now.
“Yeah, remember me?”
She nodded, “Of course I do. What are you doing here though??”
“I just came by to see how you were doing. I heard about your mom. I know it must have been a tough choice to make to pull the cord. I guess it was for the better; she’ll be in peace.”
Her eyes widened in shock, “PULL THE CORD?! Why would I ever pull the cord on my own mother?! She died I didn’t kill her! Where did you hear that from??”
“Well I went to visit you at the hospital. I-I’ve wanted to tell you something for a while now. I just didn’t know how to do it; nor could I find you. Plus I honestly wanted to see if your mom was okay. The nurse told me what happened.” I sputtered out, completely taken back.
How come she thought her mom just died?
“How could you just stoop into my personal life like this?! Just because you make a pass at me at the hospital and be all-cute, that gives you the right away to just visit my mother?! What is wrong with you?”
“I-I didn’t mean any harm in it Riley! I wasn’t trying- I uh-” I stuttered; dumbstruck.
I didn’t even know how to reply to that! ‘Oh yeah I came to see you and your mom to confess my feelings for you.’ Yeah like that will make it sound better…
“Don’t give me any excuses Noah! I can’t believe you! Just get out of my life; if I wanted to see you don’t you think I would have?! I don’t care if you think it’s okay for you to just get any girl you want. You’re not getting me!”
I frowned, “R-riley, I wasn’t trying anything like that. I just really-“
“No, save it! Get out of here! I don’t want to see you ever again!”
She charged into the house, slamming the door in my face.
I don’t even know where to begin with this. I didn’t do anything but show her how much I cared! I wasn’t trying to get over on her, and I wasn’t trying to use her mom as an excuse either! I really did care about how her mom was doing, and I really did care about her. I thought she was different. I thought she was the girl I could actually fall in love with, but I was wrong. She’s just like all the rest of them.
I’m tired of Appaloosa plains, and I’m done with trying to find that one girl who will treat me right. If girls want me to be the guy they claim I am… then so be it.
Thanks for reading! Noah was crushed by Riley before she even had the chance to get to the know the real him. Girls constantly claim Noah as just a jerk who sleeps around. He hates that, that is the first impression girls get from him. Not anymore though, he’s fed up.